Saturday, January 21, 1978

We went outside to try to get a cab but we couldn't. Then along came a white guy and a black girl in a car who offered us a ride anywhere we wanted to go, and we took it. They said that Stevie wouldn't let them in to Studio 54 because they didn't look right, but they looked okay to me - I mean, he looked like a fairy and she looked like a drag queen, it was the Studio 54 look.

Secret

I can't tell anyone.
One is too personal, I can't bring myself to tell anyone. Not even Holly. Not even Jaz. Not even Mitch. It's weird I've never had something like that before, where I can't tell anyone.

there is this other thing, like I want to tell people but can't I want to keep this one a secret, well at least until it's over and done with and all results are good :) be the best surprise ever.

Dreams

can't go ahead when thinking about stupid things.
yoiu lie in bed and no matter how hard you try, no matter how long you keep your eyes closed, your mind still wanders and keeps thinking of those stupid little things.

mine being:

*Boys. In particualr, -
-boy number 1 (being the ex)
-boy number 2 (being the taken)
-boy number 3 (being the making me confused)
*Driving
*School
*Work
*Hospital
*My back
*Money issues
*Time consumption
*Losing out on all of the above.
*Staring to miss someone :'(

humddidyhumhoyourmumsbum

right, dialema time.
need your help like.
:)
like theres this guy, like, he keeps sending mixed messages like.
like one minute he'll be asking for advise about one of my best mates, then the next he's saying I should go to his, he tells me the truth about how guys are 'dont get with him hes a prick' 'im really sorry zoe but hes not interested' 'just us two go out, no1 else' which i kinda like hes a 'gentleman'
i dont want a relationship though.
i want the surf and turf.
he says thats all he wants but the way he speaks about her is like he wants more.
its weird with guys you never know how they think.
i spose thats why i stick with guys who 'just want sex' cos the ones i get with break up with me or continously flirt with others just to make me break up with them cos they feel bad the other way around.
help!
i would jus get with him. but i dnoooooooooooooooooooooooo.
:)
to do or not to do, tis the question.

OMGOMGOMG

BIG FATTTTT CRUSH!
BIG FAT CRUSH!
BIG FAT CRUSH!
didn't realise it till today.
I knew i liked him,
but not like properly.
he blew me off for tomorrow.
and fuck me! i was like 'yeah ok no probs'
but really wanned to cry.
jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesssuslordofholyshite
ive just turned religous cosa him.
arg!
guysguysguys stop all this messin with my nod plsssssssssssssss!
its sendin me nuts.
he is going to see his grandpapapapapapapapaaaaaaaaa though so to be fair it is for a good reason.
but stillllllllllll, omg it was gonna be so good!
pssshhhh. just make it even better for when i do see him.
mawahahahahhahahahaha!

My era of desire

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